my god I thought to myself this is so early a rooster should crow
whats a rooster,hmmm?
The night was amazing he was in his plaid pants and undershirt by the time he went to bed and i was in my night shirt and matching pants he held he swung me into his arms and layed me beside him before he turned off the lights and held me.
i set the alarm and made sure it was the loud clock because i didn't want to miss the morning when Melanie from next door came over to help.
unfortunately i couldn't sleep i was so excited and by the time melanie came i was exhausted and out like a light
Saturday, January 8, 2011
the moment
i saw melanie greet matt as he got out of his car, the shook hands and laughed for a bit beofre they said good bye and i opened the door and walked out to the back porch to greet him.
he just looked up and staired, just staired, he said hi slowly put down his hockey bag and circled me.
you look amazing and im a mess, let me shower ok and don't move ok i'll be right back.
matt came back in jeans and a undershirt drying off his hair with one hand and a camera in the other.
hi, let me take a picture of you.
ok, so i let him , and that's when i noticed his arms, they were muscular and large, his hair was dark and wet and the way he looked at me made me wish i could make me look at me that way everyday.
Gabby
yes
can I hold you tonight I know you have your own room but i love you and really want to hold you
oh shit, was all that i was thinking , and i ended up blurting out
"we're not going to have sex are we because i don't think i'm ready and your really making me nervous"
matt was laughing so hard he just about dropped the camera
look gabby if it happens or if it happens i'll never make or push you ok i just want you beside me tonight ok, and you don't even have to say yes to that.
i breathed a sigh of relief and told him i was really hungry, i'm going to get some mcdonalds beause its late and there's no food in the house, so, i'll be back , we can , eat and yes you can hold me tonight.
matt kissed me on the forehead and watched me walk down the street towards the restaurant
i thought about what melanie said to me and she was right, he would never force me to do anything i didn't want to do, but one thing i liked is the way he looked at me, i couldn't wait to see what else melanie could teach me to win his favour...
he just looked up and staired, just staired, he said hi slowly put down his hockey bag and circled me.
you look amazing and im a mess, let me shower ok and don't move ok i'll be right back.
matt came back in jeans and a undershirt drying off his hair with one hand and a camera in the other.
hi, let me take a picture of you.
ok, so i let him , and that's when i noticed his arms, they were muscular and large, his hair was dark and wet and the way he looked at me made me wish i could make me look at me that way everyday.
Gabby
yes
can I hold you tonight I know you have your own room but i love you and really want to hold you
oh shit, was all that i was thinking , and i ended up blurting out
"we're not going to have sex are we because i don't think i'm ready and your really making me nervous"
matt was laughing so hard he just about dropped the camera
look gabby if it happens or if it happens i'll never make or push you ok i just want you beside me tonight ok, and you don't even have to say yes to that.
i breathed a sigh of relief and told him i was really hungry, i'm going to get some mcdonalds beause its late and there's no food in the house, so, i'll be back , we can , eat and yes you can hold me tonight.
matt kissed me on the forehead and watched me walk down the street towards the restaurant
i thought about what melanie said to me and she was right, he would never force me to do anything i didn't want to do, but one thing i liked is the way he looked at me, i couldn't wait to see what else melanie could teach me to win his favour...
hygene 101
melanie looked at her unkept urchin of a neighbour and navigated her to the bathroom
showered and dried i learned that you do not use a bar of soap to wash your hair and learned how easy it was to comb hair when one uses conditioner.
when asked by melanie if she brushed he teeth?
not in a week i lost my tooth brush is that bad?
hun your supposed to brush them 2x a day, morning and at bed time, i'll be right back i'll get you one from the store, and by the smell of you some pit stick as well
pit stick?
perfume for you armpits so they don't stink
oh OH , i was just washing them when ever they smelled bad which was 3x a day
when melanie returned she had lotion and toothpaste, toothbrush and pit stick.
ok lets brush your hair and see how bad it is
un weaving the wet mop from the elastic, melanie was shocked on how gorgeous her hair was dispite the huge chunks cut out of it from tangles i couldn't comb
well if i knew how to cut hair i would help you , but since i don't i'll ask the hair dresser to see if she could cut your hair into layers to disguise the mess you made of cutting it, plus you have like 3 inches of split ends here.
well lets get you to look at least a little nice for when he comes home he'll forget the horrible mess when he looks at you
melanie did my hair in a half up do leaving my hair down or partially down for the first time in months, it felt good to do something a little different. finding a low cut red top and white slacks. It was the red matching lipstick and mascara that made me feel so beautiful for the first time ever.
there, she said, with you looking like that he'll pay no attention to the mess, hope you have the bed made because he won't be able to keep his hands off of you in that.
why, i asked?
what do you mean why he'll probably try to get into your pants in the first 2 minutes.
"get into my pants?"
ya you know sex, making love, doing it, oh god you have no idea what i'm talking about do you?
um no, am i supposed to?
sweet jesus i'm stuck with a teenager, ok lets go the dictionary so you can read a definition.
melanie laughed when she saw the look of horror on my face and said, oh um no we haven't done that were we supposed to.
no im just not used to virgins moving in togther before the wedding night, melanie laughed
ok well tell him if he does try it and only if you want to that you haven't before so go slow and gentle, ok
um , im not doing that any time soon melanie
ok suit yourself, but he might want to someday, all men do , so keep that in mind.
oh crap really
yep
um maybe i shouldn't be dressed up like this, what if he wants to tonight, i can't melanie i just can't
shhhhh, don't worry he won't make you do anything you don't want to.
but there's his car i'm going to tell him yu helped me all day to cover for you, ok
ok thanks again see you in the morning....
showered and dried i learned that you do not use a bar of soap to wash your hair and learned how easy it was to comb hair when one uses conditioner.
when asked by melanie if she brushed he teeth?
not in a week i lost my tooth brush is that bad?
hun your supposed to brush them 2x a day, morning and at bed time, i'll be right back i'll get you one from the store, and by the smell of you some pit stick as well
pit stick?
perfume for you armpits so they don't stink
oh OH , i was just washing them when ever they smelled bad which was 3x a day
when melanie returned she had lotion and toothpaste, toothbrush and pit stick.
ok lets brush your hair and see how bad it is
un weaving the wet mop from the elastic, melanie was shocked on how gorgeous her hair was dispite the huge chunks cut out of it from tangles i couldn't comb
well if i knew how to cut hair i would help you , but since i don't i'll ask the hair dresser to see if she could cut your hair into layers to disguise the mess you made of cutting it, plus you have like 3 inches of split ends here.
well lets get you to look at least a little nice for when he comes home he'll forget the horrible mess when he looks at you
melanie did my hair in a half up do leaving my hair down or partially down for the first time in months, it felt good to do something a little different. finding a low cut red top and white slacks. It was the red matching lipstick and mascara that made me feel so beautiful for the first time ever.
there, she said, with you looking like that he'll pay no attention to the mess, hope you have the bed made because he won't be able to keep his hands off of you in that.
why, i asked?
what do you mean why he'll probably try to get into your pants in the first 2 minutes.
"get into my pants?"
ya you know sex, making love, doing it, oh god you have no idea what i'm talking about do you?
um no, am i supposed to?
sweet jesus i'm stuck with a teenager, ok lets go the dictionary so you can read a definition.
melanie laughed when she saw the look of horror on my face and said, oh um no we haven't done that were we supposed to.
no im just not used to virgins moving in togther before the wedding night, melanie laughed
ok well tell him if he does try it and only if you want to that you haven't before so go slow and gentle, ok
um , im not doing that any time soon melanie
ok suit yourself, but he might want to someday, all men do , so keep that in mind.
oh crap really
yep
um maybe i shouldn't be dressed up like this, what if he wants to tonight, i can't melanie i just can't
shhhhh, don't worry he won't make you do anything you don't want to.
but there's his car i'm going to tell him yu helped me all day to cover for you, ok
ok thanks again see you in the morning....
my first guest
well It did shock melanie to see the house but she said much of it wasn't my fault she could see much of the mess was bachelor mess she had 3 kids and could tell a boy mess from a mile away.
well at least your not to blame for much of this catastrophe, lets start with the basics tell me about his scedual at bit
well he leaves at 7:30 and sometimes comes back at noon for dinner or to see me, then he if he stays for dinner he leaves at 1pm and comes back at 6
ok then melanie told me that means that you got to get up earlier than him to put breakfast on the table what time does he wake up
6, i said
then 5 am is when you start your day, she told me, I'll come over and help
but don't you have your family to take care of
honey, melanie started , my dead beat husband left me in the 70's with 3 boys that are grown and left the nest, trust me i have time, besides i'd rather help you than sit and do suduko and crossword like i do every damn morning.
do you have any clean clothes?
no
do you know how do to laundry?
i have no idea there was a chinese laundry service next door to my old appartment that i let do my clothes.
oh sweet Jesus child you really are clueless how about dishes do you know how to do them?
well my old landlord showed me how to use the dishwasher but he doesn't have one so NO, i don't
Melanie slapped her hand to her forehead, oh lord your going to be fun!
okay so where is Matt now
at a hockey tournament, he leaves tomorrow for work up north and will be gone for 10 days.
melanie let out a huge sigh, this will work you tell him you were helping me all day and i'm returning the favor for you tomorrow that'll give an excuse of why i'm here and why the place is such a mess, today when your obviously not sick anymore.
what time does he come home tonight,
I don't know i'll phone him....no answer
ok hun how about we get you cleaned up and give you your first lesson....
well at least your not to blame for much of this catastrophe, lets start with the basics tell me about his scedual at bit
well he leaves at 7:30 and sometimes comes back at noon for dinner or to see me, then he if he stays for dinner he leaves at 1pm and comes back at 6
ok then melanie told me that means that you got to get up earlier than him to put breakfast on the table what time does he wake up
6, i said
then 5 am is when you start your day, she told me, I'll come over and help
but don't you have your family to take care of
honey, melanie started , my dead beat husband left me in the 70's with 3 boys that are grown and left the nest, trust me i have time, besides i'd rather help you than sit and do suduko and crossword like i do every damn morning.
do you have any clean clothes?
no
do you know how do to laundry?
i have no idea there was a chinese laundry service next door to my old appartment that i let do my clothes.
oh sweet Jesus child you really are clueless how about dishes do you know how to do them?
well my old landlord showed me how to use the dishwasher but he doesn't have one so NO, i don't
Melanie slapped her hand to her forehead, oh lord your going to be fun!
okay so where is Matt now
at a hockey tournament, he leaves tomorrow for work up north and will be gone for 10 days.
melanie let out a huge sigh, this will work you tell him you were helping me all day and i'm returning the favor for you tomorrow that'll give an excuse of why i'm here and why the place is such a mess, today when your obviously not sick anymore.
what time does he come home tonight,
I don't know i'll phone him....no answer
ok hun how about we get you cleaned up and give you your first lesson....
month one
I was found in a ditch 1 year ago unconscious. I have no idea who I am or who I was but every now and again I have flash backs that scare me to no end. I talked a lot so the hospital girls called me Gabby which for some reason I liked.
I barley made it on my own in this city and then I met a man Named Matt Alister who asked me to move in with him who wanted me around more often because he loved me.
Now it has been 10 days living in his house and i think he has figured out that i really don't know how to do anything. some people when they loose there memory forget how to walk well i forgot how to do everything. I can walk and eat but i have no idea how to cook, make a , bed , or clean, i had to be taught how to get dressed at the hospital before i left it. I stayed in a shelter for a few weeks after that until the social worker taught me how to get a job i could keep and not get fired and how to pay rent. Now I left that job because it's to far away from this house I moved into, he wants me to keep house for him and i said ok, what have i done. I got sick on jan 1st which was great because it was the day after i moved in so for 10 days ive been in bed, but now i'm better
it's been 10 days since i moved in i think he's starting to suspect how clueless i am. my neighbour saw me crying and i told her everything, she gave me her computer to borrow and gave me my first lesson on how to use it today. this blog she said can help me monitor my progress and help me vent like a diary.
he told me that this house needs a womans touch, I asked my neighbor, Melanie what that ment she said it was to cook, clean, and decorate it. I panicked because I have no idea how to do the simplest of things.
I said plus i have no idea how i got this big i just remember my clothes hurting when i put them on the day i left the hospital. and my hair i brush it but if there's a knot i can't comb i just cut it out and now my hair is hideous and i hide it in this bun, he's never even scene me with my hair down.
oh hunny he must like you if your this much of a wreck, did you tell him any of this.
No, melanie he knows I have no memory of my past but i never told him how i could not do the most simplest of things, i liked him so much i thought if he knew he wouldn't like me, and i needed some place to go because the only place i could afford was in the dangerous side of town. Not to sound shallow but if someone your in love with offers you safe shelter and a life time together, well you take it, anything was better than where i was living.
melanie asked me how I met matt i told her that he just about ran me over and while he was appologisinghe asked me to dinner, after 2 months he said he wanted me around him all the time and asked me to move in.
do you know anything about Matt, she asked me,?
I said no and she proceded to tell me about him
Matt is a widow of 3 years he goes to work early, comes home early, plays hockey from time to time but thats it. i haven't even scene him smile until i saw you with him.
OMG how did she die
melanie told me in some accident and he lost a child to because she was pregnant
I was silent then started to cry again, oh no he's going to kick me out when he finds out that i'm not as good as his deceased wife what do I do
well, melanie said, first you don't tell him I told you anything, second lets look at your house to see how bad it is and we can start some lessons.
cringing at the thought of letting her see the house, i let my defenses down and let her in...
I barley made it on my own in this city and then I met a man Named Matt Alister who asked me to move in with him who wanted me around more often because he loved me.
Now it has been 10 days living in his house and i think he has figured out that i really don't know how to do anything. some people when they loose there memory forget how to walk well i forgot how to do everything. I can walk and eat but i have no idea how to cook, make a , bed , or clean, i had to be taught how to get dressed at the hospital before i left it. I stayed in a shelter for a few weeks after that until the social worker taught me how to get a job i could keep and not get fired and how to pay rent. Now I left that job because it's to far away from this house I moved into, he wants me to keep house for him and i said ok, what have i done. I got sick on jan 1st which was great because it was the day after i moved in so for 10 days ive been in bed, but now i'm better
it's been 10 days since i moved in i think he's starting to suspect how clueless i am. my neighbour saw me crying and i told her everything, she gave me her computer to borrow and gave me my first lesson on how to use it today. this blog she said can help me monitor my progress and help me vent like a diary.
he told me that this house needs a womans touch, I asked my neighbor, Melanie what that ment she said it was to cook, clean, and decorate it. I panicked because I have no idea how to do the simplest of things.
I said plus i have no idea how i got this big i just remember my clothes hurting when i put them on the day i left the hospital. and my hair i brush it but if there's a knot i can't comb i just cut it out and now my hair is hideous and i hide it in this bun, he's never even scene me with my hair down.
oh hunny he must like you if your this much of a wreck, did you tell him any of this.
No, melanie he knows I have no memory of my past but i never told him how i could not do the most simplest of things, i liked him so much i thought if he knew he wouldn't like me, and i needed some place to go because the only place i could afford was in the dangerous side of town. Not to sound shallow but if someone your in love with offers you safe shelter and a life time together, well you take it, anything was better than where i was living.
melanie asked me how I met matt i told her that he just about ran me over and while he was appologisinghe asked me to dinner, after 2 months he said he wanted me around him all the time and asked me to move in.
do you know anything about Matt, she asked me,?
I said no and she proceded to tell me about him
Matt is a widow of 3 years he goes to work early, comes home early, plays hockey from time to time but thats it. i haven't even scene him smile until i saw you with him.
OMG how did she die
melanie told me in some accident and he lost a child to because she was pregnant
I was silent then started to cry again, oh no he's going to kick me out when he finds out that i'm not as good as his deceased wife what do I do
well, melanie said, first you don't tell him I told you anything, second lets look at your house to see how bad it is and we can start some lessons.
cringing at the thought of letting her see the house, i let my defenses down and let her in...
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