I was found in a ditch 1 year ago unconscious. I have no idea who I am or who I was but every now and again I have flash backs that scare me to no end. I talked a lot so the hospital girls called me Gabby which for some reason I liked.
I barley made it on my own in this city and then I met a man Named Matt Alister who asked me to move in with him who wanted me around more often because he loved me.
Now it has been 10 days living in his house and i think he has figured out that i really don't know how to do anything. some people when they loose there memory forget how to walk well i forgot how to do everything. I can walk and eat but i have no idea how to cook, make a , bed , or clean, i had to be taught how to get dressed at the hospital before i left it. I stayed in a shelter for a few weeks after that until the social worker taught me how to get a job i could keep and not get fired and how to pay rent. Now I left that job because it's to far away from this house I moved into, he wants me to keep house for him and i said ok, what have i done. I got sick on jan 1st which was great because it was the day after i moved in so for 10 days ive been in bed, but now i'm better
it's been 10 days since i moved in i think he's starting to suspect how clueless i am. my neighbour saw me crying and i told her everything, she gave me her computer to borrow and gave me my first lesson on how to use it today. this blog she said can help me monitor my progress and help me vent like a diary.
he told me that this house needs a womans touch, I asked my neighbor, Melanie what that ment she said it was to cook, clean, and decorate it. I panicked because I have no idea how to do the simplest of things.
I said plus i have no idea how i got this big i just remember my clothes hurting when i put them on the day i left the hospital. and my hair i brush it but if there's a knot i can't comb i just cut it out and now my hair is hideous and i hide it in this bun, he's never even scene me with my hair down.
oh hunny he must like you if your this much of a wreck, did you tell him any of this.
No, melanie he knows I have no memory of my past but i never told him how i could not do the most simplest of things, i liked him so much i thought if he knew he wouldn't like me, and i needed some place to go because the only place i could afford was in the dangerous side of town. Not to sound shallow but if someone your in love with offers you safe shelter and a life time together, well you take it, anything was better than where i was living.
melanie asked me how I met matt i told her that he just about ran me over and while he was appologisinghe asked me to dinner, after 2 months he said he wanted me around him all the time and asked me to move in.
do you know anything about Matt, she asked me,?
I said no and she proceded to tell me about him
Matt is a widow of 3 years he goes to work early, comes home early, plays hockey from time to time but thats it. i haven't even scene him smile until i saw you with him.
OMG how did she die
melanie told me in some accident and he lost a child to because she was pregnant
I was silent then started to cry again, oh no he's going to kick me out when he finds out that i'm not as good as his deceased wife what do I do
well, melanie said, first you don't tell him I told you anything, second lets look at your house to see how bad it is and we can start some lessons.
cringing at the thought of letting her see the house, i let my defenses down and let her in...
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